Operation Be Good To Myself
I haven't posted to el jay in a while, simply because I haven't had anything to say. I'm not one of those post every little detail that happens in my day type of people, and well, my life is a big bowl of suck for the past couple of months.

I had an epiphany recently, and this is what it is. If I continue to treat my body the way I treat it (partying, eating excessively, drinking, etc) I am going to die before I hit 26. I cannot keep this up. I'm not a rockstar and I don't want to be one. I'm 24, I have responsibilities in life, to my friends, my family, my job, and myself. And I have to treat myself well, because no one else will.

I've been sober for 8 days now, and have gone to the gym twice in that span. My goal is a 10-day sobriety detox period, followed by the introduction of alcohol back into my life. The thing is, it's fucking stupid to go out and just start bingeing again, so I have to be sure that whatever I continue to do, I do with moderation.

Anyways, Day 8. And I've been to bars, been out with friends, and have even gone hiking out in San Mateo. I'm exhausted but I'm not sick or broken or hungover or in pain.

Baby steps. I can do this.